This blog is a living testament to my broken humanity. Simply stated, my flakiness. I chose to use this blog as a tool to open my eyes and heart to God's little blessings in life. While God commits daily to bless my life, I chose to make a commitment to write about it. However, I found other things to consume my time and thus ignored this commitment - hence my flakiness. Was I too lazy to type a simple entry? Or was I simply choosing to yet again ignore God's blessings? I think it was a little bit of both. I can blame it on my travels to California, or my accumulating stress, but then I'd be doing the typical human thing of denying responsibility for my failure.
I think it is important for me to see this as one of God's bitter-sweet blessings. I don't believe a blessing is always good in the human-definition. Good for me means anything that positively benefits me. Something that doesn't hurt or challenge me. A Blessing is a free handout, where I don't have to do anything in return. However, I don't think God sees a blessing in the same light. Having failed to keep my commitment to this blog God blessed me with a reminder of my imperfections. It doesn't feel good to know I failed and flaked out on something. It is a sucky reality I want to ignore. But it truly is a blessing to be reminded that I am going to fail... and that is okay. It is okay to be imperfect and make mistakes because God's love for me is infinite and unfailing.
So, in my imperfection I commit, again, to write about the blessings God gives me each day. And I challenge myself to look for blessings I otherwise wouldn't acknowledge or praise God for. It's easy to thank God for the big blessings that we as humans ask for. And it's easy to ignore Him and all He does do, while waiting for those things to happen.
I thank God for reminding me I am not perfect, through this failed commitment. And I thank God for loving me enough to give me another opportunity at this blog and at life.
What painful blessings has God placed in your life lately? Has it reminded you of His infinite love for you?
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